Depressing Birthday

Tomorrow is my birthday. Whoop-fucking-eeeee!


I'm gonna be 34, and what do I have to show for it?


1. I don't have a job, because i'm too sick to work.

2. I don't have my own home anymore, i've been repossessed, and from next week i'll be in council accommodation in West Bromwich.

3. I'm constantly broke because being on benefits sucks!!!

4. I'm missing my dog so much it hurts like hell, which is bringing me down even more.

5. I feel incredibly lonely and isolated right now.

When you have a birthday, you're supposed to enjoy it, feel great about turning a year older, that you've made it through another year, when you didn't think you would.

What will I be doing tomorrow? I have no idea. I'll be feeling lonely I know that much, even if i'm not on my own, because that's how I feel right now, and all I wanna do, is go out and buy another bottle of Vodka to cheer me up, because it seems like the only thing that does these days!


Is that what i've become?

And let's not even talk about Feb 14th!!!


I might as well be in my grave the way i'm feeling right now!!!